My Chemo Companion: Shirley the Hell Hound. What might you think about while on death's bed? I thought of the past and the future that I would miss. I thought of my boys and husband. I categorized all the firsts that would slip by with me not in the picture: graduations dates cars college application acceptance letters serious relationships grandchildren. This list became my mantra. I couldn't write it down, couldn't bring my hand to lift the pen enough to to do so. So, I spoke them in my mind's eye. I caressed them with tenderness and shed tears as I went down the list. I hoped that God and the Universe would recognize that these simple attainable truths should not be denied in life and maybe grant me a pardon? I became encased in thought and wrapped it around me as one would a blanket. Anything could have been on the television screen, and anything was. The Food Network was airing non-stop holiday baking competitions with food I'd forgott...
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